“I was on the verge of crying when Boon entered my house and would give in to the tears soon after.
It’s hard for me to let others know when I am struggling. I was taught at a young age that I was only desirable, lovable or worthy if I was providing comfort and that having my own needs, speaking out about the abuse I grew up with or trying to set boundaries made me a burden, selfish or a trouble maker.
I have carried this mentality into my adulthood. I have lived my life unable to reach out for fear and I would be punished rather than embraced.
I was in need of comfort and support recently. I gave way to my desperation and asked for it only to be made to feel like I don’t matter. I have gotten used to doing things without support and I know I will continue to fight. I just feel so alone and unloved at times I have a hard time finding reasons….
I was in that head space when Boon arrived at my house. The shoot helped. I could feel pain release as we went along and by the end it was replaced with a feeling of serenity.
The act of creating is extremely cathartic. I find comfort being in that space. It gives me reason.“
– Danielle
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Ever since I first photographed Danielle sometime in 2014, we have clicked so well that I have made it as a yearly ritual to connect and do a photo session with her. Since then, she has been my muse to create (check out Session 1, 2, 3, 4). Photographing the same person year after year can be daunting, mostly due to the challenge of creating something new and not self-repeating. And we did work well together creating many memorable and award winning pieces.
Coming into our 5th session, considering the circumstances (as described by Danielle), I’ve taken a more implied yet intimate approach. Relative to all my historical work, this collection is probably the most clothed session, but emotionally relieving and extremely therapeutic.Â
And No, I did not give Danielle the chance to cry, I just don’t want her to.Â
Danielle, hope everything is well for you.
(Music credit: Out of The Black – Billie Marten)
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