“When I was 14 years old I got very ill. I spent 2 years getting every test you can imagine, trying medication after medication. Eventually I was diagnosed with an invisible illness that has no cure, no known cause, and no solid treatment plan. But I learned to live with it, and over the years figured out how to make a living and a life.
I did built a life that I loved and passionate about.
A year and a half ago though, I lost control. My health spiraled, and I had to give up so much of the life I built. I couldn’t work, I rarely socialized.
I kept thinking “in a month I’ll feel better”, “I’ll feel like myself soon, I just have to take it easy”. However, instead of one month, it’s been 18. I still struggle to work or see friends. Some days I struggle to manage the bare minimums of self care, i.e. getting dressed, bathing, feeding myself and staying hydrated. I’ve had to turn down countless opportunities. If I decide not to turn things down, I often spend days or weeks recovering afterwards.
I feel like I lost myself, and I’m not sure that version of me, the girl who could take on the world, is coming back.
I preach body positivity and self love, yet I spend a lot of time feeling as if my body let me down. I put off this shoot for a full year because I felt too vulnerable to be shown not at my best. But at a certain point, I had to decide to be okay with myself.
Some days are harder than others, but I’m doing my best to give myself permission to take the time I need to recover. To focus on what I still have, rather than what I’ve lost. To find light in the darkness and comfort in quiet moments.”
(Music credit: Heavy Weather – Billie Marten)
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